It’s a valid question, I think. If you’ve seen American Beauty, you’ll remember the famous scene where the weird kid rambles on about the beauty of a floating bag over a cold concrete sidewalk in autumn. As ridiculous as it sounds, he did have an interesting line.

“Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart’s going to cave in”

Every now and then I get a sense of that kind of perfection – that kind of beauty that impacts the soul and could almost drive you wild  at the inability to physically touch it. The utter intangibility of beauty itself is what makes it so appealing, a strong emotional experience if you’re prone to that sort of sensitivity.

But how often would you relate that level of emotion to “cute”?

Novalee was sitting on the bed watching the iPod sans audio. The headphones I have are giant and floppy and made for my giant head, not her tiny one.

“I’m going to get speakers, I’ll be right back”

“Ok Daddy”, She replied.

I stepped into the office to untangle my speakers. It was taking too long – it  takes Novalee about 2 seconds to get into trouble. So I peeked in the bedroom.

Novalee was sitting there, engrossed in “The Tale of Despereaux”. She tried to get the headphones on her head, but got it way wrong.  The one ear that was covered the speaker faced outward, her little neck cocked to catch any noise from the speaker on her other shoulder…

With all the strength and voice and pride that sweet, blessed little child could muster, she shouted “I DID IT!”…

So I about lost it – that feeling somewhere between tears of sadness and joy, knowing how lucky I am to have that one moment in time, but devastated at the realization that it will be gone in a few seconds,  no more than a memory.

Either way, I feel lucky that I live a life filled with special moments like that.

Happy Holidays Everyone!

Show Me Some Love If I Deserve It!

Tags: cute, Novalee